(82) I want to fall in love with someone someday and go on romantic little adventures with them and just be happy.　

I don’t think I’ve ever posted anything about the crap that goes on in my dreams, but I just thought I should write this down somewhere.

I don’t exactly remember what was going on my dream I was pretty much just going through the day, but the one thing that I do remember was that there was this envelope and I was going about doing things and this envelope kept on appearing wherever I went, but I didn’t pay too much attention to it. Eventually I saw it and figured that since it kept on appearing wherever I went I would open it.

So I open this unlabeled envelope and I unfold the piece of paper on the inside. And it was some sort of love~ note, for me. And as I’m reading the note I notice the handwriting looks a bit familiar. I’m reading the note and it’s telling me things about, it sucks that this, and blah blah blah, and then I remember there were some cutesy things in there that made me smile. As I was reading the note, I kept on thinking to myself, “Who wrote this note?” And towards the bottom, where the signature should be, it said “Love,” and the person’s name was scratched out. However by the time, I got to the end of the note, though, I knew who it was from, and I felt all nice inside. Then I woke up.

Oh, yeah, I think I was at some some kind of beach when I finally did open the envelope.

(81) I really just want a boyfriend so that I can go on cute little adventures with him without it being weird.

When you kiss someone, kiss them with both hands, kiss them like you are holding on tight and won’t let go. Lean in for the kiss like you are both in a musical and the score is swirling around you — as if your dress or her dress or both of your dresses will be blown up by the wind at any moment. Pretend you are like people who are holding each other after a long war is over and peace has been declared and you are being photographed in black and white. Kiss them like it’s going to be hung on someone’s wall someday, as a reminder of what love can be like.

I’m making extra money babysitting, and I know I should probably save it, but all I really want to do spend it on clothes. HOWEVER, I am pretty thrifty when I go clothes shopping, so if I spend a little bit, hmmm.